Why Losing My Job Was A Blessing In Disguise
Fun fact about me: I got married to the love of my life last year. A not so fun fact about me: I lost my job, also last year.
A lot of people think I was the happiest woman in the world and don’t get me wrong, I really was at my happiest.. but before and after I got married, I was struggling. I chose to keep it to everyone, even to some of my closest friends because I was ashamed of it. But now that I think of it, I realized that losing my job was actually a blessing in disguise.
I had a stable job back in the Philippines. I was in my niche, I was in Marketing. Back then, I had big dreams-- I even had my life planned out. I dreamt of taking a Master’s Degree. I dreamt of setting up a business with my roommate. I was very much into my career and I thought I’m only just a few steps away from my dreams. Everything changed when my family migrated to Canada. I had to start from scratch and finding a job in Marketing was tough.
I ditched a lot of jobs to pursue my passion and failed countless times.
People looked down upon my way of thinking and some even thought I was just being lazy. What they don’t know is that I love to work, I really do. What I don’t like is wasting my time and I believe that working for jobs that I didn’t like is just a complete waste of time and effort. But after several attempts of pursuing my passion and looking for a Marketing job, I realized that maybe they were right. Besides, I needed a full-time job that would help me and Kelly (who was then my fiance) pay for our wedding. So I did what others told me. I got a job at a call center. I made everyone happy-- everyone but me. I made myself believe that was my calling. That maybe someday, I’d learn to love it.
So I tried. And believe me when I said I tried. I used to bring home my notes at home. I worked for 7 days a week, 8 to 10 hours a day. I was so into it and it consumed me. Yes, I was able to help pay for our wedding because of this job. However, I wasn’t able to enjoy married life. Kelly used to complain that we don’t get to talk anymore because I’m just always preoccupied with my job. I know it was not something I wanted to have as my career but I needed that job. But no matter how hard I try, I just couldn’t make it work. The last few months of working for the company, I committed a lot of mistakes and I was mentally, emotionally and physically drained. Then it happened, I got let go. I lost my job a week before Christmas.
I was jobless on Christmas Day and it was a rough time.
I was ashamed at my husband, cause I felt that I failed him. I thought that maybe it was me, maybe I was not good enough. It deeply affected my confidence and I was ready to give up.
After hearing all of these, you may wonder why I still think losing my job was a blessing in disguise?
Well, it led me to where I am right now. I got hired by a startup company in their Marketing Department. I’m working for them for almost a year now and I still get butterflies in my stomach whenever I think of it. My current job has allowed me to do the things I love and they inspire me to step out of my comfort zone. It also opened a lot of new opportunities. I started a part time job, although not in Marketing, I love it because I am able to help other people by interacting with them. The best part of all these is having more time with my loved ones and waking up every morning, knowing that I love what I do.
One thing I realized with all of these is that you will never excel on something if you don’t love what you do. While having security and practically are important aspects of being a responsible adult, we owe ourselves that happiness and peace of mind. What happens if you work for a job but can’t give your best performance because your heart is not just on it? How secure your job is if you always commit mistakes because that job isn’t just in your niche? It will only be unfair for you, and the company you are working for, if you can’t give your 100% because it isn’t something you like to do.
PURSUING your passion will hurt you a lot of times. but it’s worth it.
If I didn’t lose my job, I may not realize how important my passion is, in building the career I always dream of. I know this is not the end of my journey. There will always be something that could potentially test my career and my confidence. All I can say is that when I followed my passion, it led me to a happier and a more fulfilled life. The kind of life I always wished for everyone to have.
Hello there! My name is Krizzia and I'm a style blogger based in Edmonton, Alberta. I hope to inspire women to be more confident with their style, one outfit at a time. 👸🏻